"On top of the world" all the time..

I got to thinking the other day when I was still jobless, penniless, and single (the least of my worries actually...but I just thought I'd add it in there for sympathy purposes)...about how blessed I am. Right now. And I can honestly say that I am probably more blessed than I've ever been; even without all of those things.

You know what's crazy though..?? How no matter how much we have/don't have/want/rich/poor/single/married...we find ourselves wishing and longing for a different life. We find something on the inside of us that wonders what the other side would feel like. Is it just me?...am I alone on this?

I think not.

And maybe it's only temporary insanity that pleads from the inside out for something different; and I'm not entirely sure that this is a negative thing. Were we not created for something more than this life we live in now?!

The reason why I believe I am more blessed than ever is because I have more experience. I have learned more, succeeded more, failed more, loved more, been broken-hearted more, dreamed more, been 'too scared to do anything' more than ever, cried and laughed more, taught myself to not get offended more, wrote more, sang more songs, watched the hand of God so wonderfully take care of me more, seen more, tasted more, hugged more, and the list goes on. I have lived more in the last few years than I ever have. And no matter what each of these things felt like in the moment, I wouldn't take back the lessons learnt from either of them.

You see; we could look at our lives from the view point of a 'consistent want' or 'fake need' of something or someone for as long as we want, and we will never feel alleviated from that temporary 'pot-hole' that leaves that aching feeling in our stomach.

I decided last week when I was still in need, still in want of something I didn't have - that I would remain (in my heart) on 'top of the world' all of the time. I saw a post on Facebook the other day that said: I'm a romantic literalist. As in: "The glass is neither half full or half empty-- it's just half a glass of water... OOH! But look at how the light shines through it!"


I LOVED this point of view! It's not about trying to create a false positive by pretending that what is going on in your life isn't real - that it doesn't hurt, or doesn't seem impossible. It's about seeing reality but making the most of it.

FOR EXAMPLE!!!! :)

When I didn't have a job, I realized that in between the job searching and sulking over my lack of, I could either do that; just sulk all day, or I could look at it from the perspective that I may never have this time again. I may never have this time to write, ponder, dream, be inspired, get a habit of being fit again, watch and enjoy every moment of my niece growing up...I may never have these moments again. And secretly, I think these times are a little piece of heaven in disguise.

I hear so many young girls (teenage/early 20s) yearning for marriage. I remember being one of those girls. And although I believe in marriage and how great it will be whole-heartily, I also believe that these years leading up to the life-long commitment of marriage and family are extremely vital. The older I get, the more I understand why the timing is essential. The longing and desire isn't wrong and there is nothing that says what the appropriate age is for marriage - please understand my point.

I have friends who got married young (18) and who are still married and now have children. They are happy - most definitely - but the moments where I have expressed how I think it'd be great to be 'in their shoes'...EVERY single one if them has said the same thing..."But Nat, you have gotten to experience so much.   You have gotten to do things I will never get the experience to do."

And there is no competition. Each life is MEANT to be different than the other. Each life has it's own journey to walk and tread through.

So no matter what we are faced with - triumph, tragedy, success, failure, joy, or sadness...let's make the effort to see the blessing(s) in our life. Re-adjust and re-align 'your' reality to HIS reality.

I often wonder what God sees in comparison to me. In fact, I often ask Him that question. And I get all kinds of answers. But the most common of all is that He never sees impossibility. Ever.

A decision to be 'On top of the world' all the time isn't a self-motivated lie that we need to begin to practice...but rather it's a daily decision to look at life from a different perspective.

No more comparing, no more sulking...you must know that you are alive for a purpose greater than  your own. That's reason enough to keep your head held high. And on the other days when that might not work, go take a drive to somewhere that seems bigger than you: the ocean, lake, mountains, hills, desert...that always works for me. :)

This is for someone-hopefully...

You are loved xx