Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Haiti - I've never forgotten you


11 years ago I decided to take a 2 week mission trip with a bunch of other young people I didn't know to Dominican Republic and Haiti. We all met up in a training camp just outside of Dallas, Texas. While we were there, we did some training on what to expect from where we were going.

You can plan, imagine, prepare - (whatever you want to call it) for something all you like...but it can never really really prepare you for the reality of a situation.




Haiti is one of the most beautiful places (geographically) on the Earth that I have seen so far. I mean, I woke up every morning and had fresh bananas and pineapple directly from the source - I still can remember the taste. I may grow bananas one day...the thought of it has inspired me to. :)



But what I remember the most about Haiti is their spiritual heritage. Before heading to Haiti from Dominican republic, we were warned of the history of Haiti and how they had devoted most of the lives to worshipping using witchcraft and all that comes with that. All we knew is that it would be very different then the United States. When a whole nation has decided to make Voodoo their primary religion and belief... you know things are gonna be different.




We were on our way to Haiti by bus from Dominican. As soon as we crossed the border between the two countries - something changed...we felt it. The only way to explain it is that something 'spiritually' had changed. Before we could say anything that put words to how we all felt at that same moment...the bus completely broke down. Right there...within only meters of arriving in the country of Haiti...our bus had completely stopped working. Immediately we all looked at each other and knew that this was going to be a battle. One that ONLY our preperation in prayer had prepared us for.


You see, our team wasn't just traveling around doing 'nice things for Jesus.' We were preaching the gospel of Jesus Christ...and hundreds of people were being saved because of the message. People were being healed and set free and being connected with great churches in their area so that they could continue to serve Jesus with others. And if you've been a follower of Christ longer than 2 minutes - you will have found out quicker than you can say the word 'quick' that satan exists only to see destruction come to our lives. And ANYTHING that brings Life and salvation is an enemy to him.


So we came there to bring life, love, freedom, and bring the message of salvation to people who probably had NEVER heard this message. We came to bring the message of hope and salvation to people who had been using voodoo mixed with their version of Catholicism for as long as their country had existed. Most of them knew nothing else.


Ever since then I have been vowing in my heart that I would return...the people stole a place in my heart.



We stopped at a little orphanage just right inside the country and began to get to know the children who barely spoke any English. So we used the little bit of french we knew and did our best to communicate. We taught them songs about Jesus in french...songs like 'Jesus loves me.' So here we are...just young people - who didn't know what we were doing other than that we were relying completely on God to show us - and these beautiful Haitian children were singing songs about Jesus' love for them. I look back and still get the same feeling...'oh the ways God can bring healing and restoration to a nation.'




And just the other day - we all hear of massive natural disasters that have hit Haiti. And I guess it just hits home. Yes...11 years is a long time ago...but you never forget things like this. Ever.




Haiti needs prayer...more prayer than we normally would give. The stupid thing is that I'm sure someone who calls themselves a 'christian' will probably give their opinion that the reason natural disaster has come to Haiti is because of their devotion to satan. And believe you me...I will give that person my opinion when it happens!! God does not bring destruction upon a nation because of their disobedience...if so...America would be first! (AND I'M AMERICAN!!)




So...what is our part?...what is my part?...prayer..finance...whatever it takes. They need to know love and acceptance from every other part of the world. Love draws people to Jesus...not judgement.




There is so much work to do...we need to be praying for peace in this situation. Natural disaster has always bred more crime than what would normally be. And it was the case several years ago when Haiti was hit by two other massive cyclones/hurricanes. Let's pray this will not be the case...and that instead...the name of Jesus would rise up...and people would be drawn to Him....forever.




I still believe there is hope in devastation...God uses all things and makes them beautiful and new. I love the part in the movie 'The Passion of Christ' when Jesus is carrying the cross and Mary(his mother) runs over to him when He drops it...she is worried, feels hopeless...but He says to her..'Do not cry...for I make all things new.'




Let us pray.








Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Always Forever...

Its raining outside...one of my favorite things when i'm inside all snug under a blanket. I can smell the rain right now - Serenity.

I'm sitting here thinking, imagining how my life is gonna look in the next few months and how what's in my heart is gonna happen. And then, I quickly imagined how our creator must feel when I continually doubt what He can do. Doubt that He is big enough, strong enough, creative enough....ENOUGH.

I've found myself almost planning in the back of my mind going back to a place I once called home...a long long time ago. I keep thinking - 'It would be so much easier to just quit trusting and just go.' I keep thinking that every door that doesn't seem to be opening here...means its a door closing here. I keep thinking that the friendships I thought would happen aren't happening because its a door closing. You know...all the things that people have 'felt the need' to tell me at one time.

What is completely insane is that I know deep down it will all work out. But its hard waiting...and looking at what seems like 'wall after wall' of endless IMPOSSIBILITIES. Its funny though; everytime I try ( I mean REALLY try) to look into other options...I just feel God lead me to stop.

I gotta be honest - I don't know what that means. I'm a planner...I like to plan. I LOVE spontaneous...but I think I only love it when its convenient. But all this TRYING to plan ahead is making miss out on what's directly in my life right now. I don't wanna miss out on the good things I have now.

I've probably envied others more lately than I ever have in my whole life. And that is NOT easy to say. Wishing that their easy life was mine...funny how we think everyone else's life is easier than our own. Little do we know the struggles, challenges and the trust they had to learn to walk in.

In saying all of that - mostly nonsense...I do need Him. Always and forever. There will never be a season in my life where I will 'have it all together.' Ha! I may think I do...ohhh but I don't. I will always always always need my Saviour. I need Him to show me how to be more like Him and less like...well me (the 'moody' me). :)

So as the rain falls, the thunder rumbles, the wind violently blows the wee-baby trees outside my bedroom window...i'm listening to a song on repeat. And it couldn't be more perfect for what I need to learn - remember - meditate on right now. I recommend you listen to it if you can. Its called 'Always Forever' by Phil Wickham.


You are the hand
That catches my fall
You are the friend
That answers my call

You are my day
You are my night
You are my love
And all of my life

You are the Love I need
you are the air I breathe
You are my love, my life
always forever
I would lay down my life
just to be by your side
you are my love my life
always forever
always forever

You are the grace that covers my sin
You're everything, the beginning and end
you have my soul
my heart and my mind
You have my love
And all of my life

Hallelujah
Forever